Wednesday 8 May 2019

Counselling

I was officially discharged from counselling last week. She said she couldn't really see where else she could go with me. I have made progress since I first saw her. I don't feel like I want to end my life as much as I did back at the end of the year/Beginning of this year.. She's also helped me with my anxiety a hell of a lot. It's been tough, I found leaving the house hard. And that was with others, I just didn't feel safe. Even the bus journey and travelling to counselling was tough. But I enjoyed the time by myself and it helped me learn that if something bad is going to happen I cannot do anything to stop it. I just need to learn to deal with the here and now. I am hoping that I won't ever need to go back to it, But I know that if I do need to then I can just self refer myself back. But to be told that someone is proud of how far you have come then it feels bloody good. I didn't realise how well I had done and also how quick the sessions had gone, My therapist was so lovely and we got on really well. I am kind of sad that time is over but now it is time to start living and start to become a better version of me.