Anxiety

I am posting today about Anxiety. And how it affects me every single day. And what I do to help relieve some of it in my day to day life.

I have social and generalised anxiety, And it does affect me every single day. I find going out around people and having to socialise difficult. It means that going to supermarkets and places that are going to be busy and crowded hard. I panic if I cannot find the people I am supposed to be with, I hate loosing my mum in the supermarket(I think this comes from me being lost when I was little) I even hate having to lock doors in the loo. My anxiety is even bad travelling. I get over this though with having my headphones in and distracting myself. I also make sure I have my water with me. I like when the bus is not busy as I have plenty of room to make sure I am not crushed.

I also make sure I never drink coffee when I am out or working as it sends my heart crazy. I am on beta-blockers and they do help. I get really really bad anxiety at work. My manager is great and I am allowed to get some water and take a few minutes out if I need it. I have learnt some breathing to help me as well. But I hate how it affects me daily and I wish it would go away.

I also have separation anxiety, I hate being away from home. I don't do well when I have to go away and I have some big trips coming soon. I would love some tips from people if they have any. I have cancelled many events because I cannot bring myself to go and be away from home and also I panic about what will happen. But I am not going to let it beat me this time as next month is someone I am a big fan of and I am not missing it for nothing.

Does anyone have any app ideas I can download on my phone? I always have my phone with me so I can download stuff on my phone to distract me. I have kindle so I can read. But I wondered if anyone knows any other good anxiety apps.