The media and the effect it has on body image these days

Today's post is all about body image and how the media gives the wrong ideas to teenage girls. I hate buying the magazines these days, they always seem to have the latest diet fad advertised, And they always focus on celebrities and the size they are. Are they too skinny or too fat. As a plus size girl that struggles with her body and has been in the past picked on because of her size I find it difficult to read some days. 

I also have had experience of how eating disorders can wreck someone's life. These days teenagers have enough to deal with, pressure to be perfect, get perfect grades and fit in that they don't need body image to have to cope with as well. I also think that by not using plus size models is so wrong too because not everyone is a size 10 and it should be shown that you can be plus sized and beautiful.

I find programmes like Love Island and Towie also do not help. It is girls with skinny bodies showing off there toned perfect stomach in a bikini. And the men have perfect toned, tanned muscle clad bodies and they don't have contestants with plus size bodies because it does not look good for the show.

 I also find Slimming world and weight watchers can be hard too. I tried slimming world and I gave it up because I didn't like the fact my weight loss was announced to a group of people I don't really know. It knocked my confidence and I struggled so bad with my anxiety. I am going to start doing it again but at home where the only person who would know my weight loss or gain is me and my mum.

 I think that also having pop stars who do interviews about there weight loss on TV gives off the wrong ideas too. Lots of teenage girls and young women/men watch it especially shows like Lorraine and This Morning. I don't want the fact you have to be "thin" to be pushed in my face and that you have to look a certain way to be "Perfect"

I love that brands like Simply be use Plus size girls. And it makes me feel a little bit better, especially if they have stretch marks and cellulite on show, It does help me think that my body is OK and I don't have to be skinny and a size 10.

Let the haters hate!

I receive hate like everyone else probably does on line. Usually it does not bother me. But due to my anxiety and depression, Sometimes it does get to me, I received some the other day from a grown adult male. And it got to me. I was told to go and put a mask on because I was ugly. And at the moment I am struggling with my body issues. And his comment got to me. Along with already feeling pretty rubbish anyway it really got me down. But today it's a new day and I just have to accept that he probably has his own insecurities. And he couldn't even have a profile photo, so he is a troll.

I need to learn to just let stupid comments go and just laugh them off. Like Jessie J sings "Let the haters hate" they have there own sad lives and problems and probably don't have a job. So spend the day and night sending hate to others to try and make themselves feel better.

My IBS and food allergies

Today's post is a little different. Alongside my depression and anxiety. I also suffer with IBS and stomach problems. I have to be really careful what I eat, As I can get flare up's within an hour of eating. It is difficult in my new job as we are allowed food at the end of the dinnertime and I always feel really bad turning food down but I cannot risk eating something that will make me ill. The pain is awful and I get really bloated and have really bad diarrhoea. 

I am on codeine for it and Buscopan. But sometimes that is not enough and I also take probiotics. The pain is so bad some days I just want to curl into a ball. I find a hot water bottle or heat pad helps too. 

The main things I cannot have are Oats, Onions, White bread, Coffee, Spicy foods. I miss eating porridge(GF one is not as nice) I really miss ready brek(Wish they would do a GF version it might taste better than Free from porridge). I also miss flapjack and I miss eating normal pizza. I don't like gluten free pizza bases they taste like cardboard. Also why is Gluten free food so expensive? It is crazy money. I cannot afford to go completely Gluten free so I just have the porridge and also either Soya Milk or Lactose free milk.

I also really like drinking peppermint tea as I find that helps me too. It helps if I get acid reflux too, it helps with the sickness feeling. And bloating, some days I look pregnant. 

I also have to be so careful when I go to eat at restaurants. But yesterday I found a place near me that does the best Gluten free Pizza. So I am going to be going there again. It was yummy. Pizza hut and Mcdonald's are two places I cannot eat at. It isn't worth the pain or how ill it makes me. 

I love making gluten free bread in my bread maker though. It is harder to make than normal bread but still tastes yummy.

We have tummy problems on my dad's side of the family. Me and my brother and my dad struggle with stuff we eat. My uncle also has chrons disease and has been really poorly recently. 

If you want more information on Ibs and other stomach disorders then please click the links below.

NHS-UK

Patient Info

https://www.theibsnetwork.org/

Fresh air always helps me feel better

Today's post is all about one of my new favourite places to go when I feel a bit rubbish. I only discovered it on Tuesday. But it has become one of my favourite places in Cornwall. 

(My best friend, this will always be a favourite photo)

Basically last Sunday/Monday was a bit of a let down mentally for me. I was hugely delayed on my journey and it just ruined the whole weekend for me. And I got to my accommodation and it was horrible. So I ended up having a massive panic attack before I got to the venue for the show I was going too and I just wanted to run away. Let's just say I could not wait to go home. And the journey back on the Monday was not much better. But my best friend picked me up on Tuesday evening and took me too West Pentire in Newquay Cornwall. We went to see the Poppy fields. And watch the sunset. I love poppies and I took my camera along. So I am going to share some photos with you that I took, I hope you enjoy them.

I am back and an explanation and update

Hey! long time no see. I feel so bad but my laptop broke and I have not been able to blog, But my lovely sister ordered me a new laptop and it arrived today. So normal service will resume. I hopefully have a guest blog post coming soon. And I do have loads of ideas of new posts I want to put up. I am  now going to give my all to this blog. I want to help people and inspire those, And become a proper blogger. I also want to start using my photography skills on here too. 

Since I last posted, I have become an Auntie to my nephew Elwin. He is now nearly 3 months old and I adore him! He is such a happy smiley cute chunky monkey. And I have also got a new job. I am now a catering assistant in a primary school. I left Primark at the start of June. I love my new job and it has given me back more time. I also now have my weekends back.

Left behind

Just something I wrote, I am feeling a bit down and left behind by people who claim to be friends. I find writing helps when I don't have any other way of getting out what I feel. It's also another distraction for my self harming.(I am almost 4 months clean). If you like this let me know and I will post more up as I do them. Thanks for reading.

I’ve been that girl

Always picked last

Never good enough 

Spotlight never on my face

Told me my dreams won’t come to life

Coz you don’t deserve the best alright 

Treated like dirt, the blood upon my face 

I’ve walked away to save grace

Always trying to win the race 

Spend hours on her face 

But the reflections don’t hide the pain 

Coz I’m never gonna be the girl with supermodel status 

 Just the a warrior with a scar

Who you belittle from afar 

I’m Stronger than any of you 

Coz I’ve got a battle I’m fighting too 

Never looks in a mirror coz she’s scared of what she’ll see

Hides her scars under her sleeves 

Whilst remembering to breathe 

Coz tonight might be her last 

This battle she cannot win 

Her army all dead and bleedin 

Kati Morton

Hey

Today's post is all about a Youtube star I have followed for a long time. She's from the USA and has a mental health channel. Kati Morton is a Therapist and posts videos with advice and things to help us with Mental Health conditions. She also does a weekly YouNow where she goes live and does a chat and giveaways. 

Kati Morton's Youtube channel

Kati also runs a website where you can go and chat to other Kinions. And find links to Kati's video's and advice. Here is the link to Kati's website

Kati also has a patreon account which helps her be able to make the videos and the content needed to do videos. Being a Kinion also has benefits, You get entered into giveaways and a raffle. And you also get extra video content and Kati personally answers questions from her patreon members too. And you also get a mention on the videos on youtube. Kati Morton's Patreon 

You can also contact Kati on her twitter @Katimorton and over on facebook too under the same name.

Kati cannot always reply to you straight away so if you or someone you know is in crisis please contact the Samaritans or a doctor as soon as possible.